Hello @va1994

I can understand that you must feel very disappointed because of the ups and downs of your recovery, but what Amanda,@amandajro, said is so true. Recovery has a lot of ups and downs. If you think of the process of sobriety as a journey, this might help you. On any journey, we sometimes take a wrong turn and end up on the wrong road. So, it is a good idea to plan for temptations but it is also important to accept the fact that if you slip back into addiction, it is also possible to get back into recovery mode, or on the right road.

I would like to invite some people who have dealt with recovery in the past to talk with you about their recovery journey, @jonasd, @roch, @viola, @jennymja, @dmcdaniel1, @rathdowney, @soberkat11.

Support groups and insight-oriented personal counseling sessions can be very helpful. Have you committed to attending personal counseling or 12 Step groups on a regular basis?