Sigh, this is absolutely the worst time, that I remember on my journey. It breaks my heart every time I hear someone else going through this time. The very first thing I should have done is call a good friend and sit and have a good cry, and instead I was tough and strong for those around me and pretended I was fine until I couldn’t pretend anymore. Please don’t do this to yourself because wherever you are when those tears start to flow, might not be the place you want to be sobbing uncontrollably. Like in a work meeting where you are already the least smart person in the room. Although it is worth a laugh now, it was just adding insult to injury at the time.
Please be gentle with yourself and allow yourself some time to absorb this new part of your journey. Today we have hope because of all of the new treatments for MBC, but it is different than feeling like you are fighting to beat the cancer. Now it feels like I live from scan to scan, and I have had to learn to roll with with some really hard punches. I have really bad days, and some so-so days when I think about it too much. I am currently progression free, but not cancer free.
I don’t know anything about you, but we are sisters on this path. Please feel free to private message me if you feel more comfortable talking about some things there. I know there are a few other MBC folks here that might connect to this thread as well.
Our fearless leader on connect always says, pull up a chair, let me pour you a cup of tea and let’s talk about it. Do you have family close by? What are you passionate about? Do you have a doctor you trust?