@macygollob Sending a multitude of good thoughts and prayers your way! I agree with @jenniferhunter , this is a great place to share your story and get connected with others who are also struggling. I hope you will find encouragement here. You can count me as 1 who understands the battle to hold onto hope....there is still beauty found in life, and I see this new experience as a "color change". Not everyone gets to experience this, struggles can be a gift if we use the time to learn and make others aware and spread real encouragement (not false hope)! You are NOT ALONE in this fight! Keep your head up...lastly, I agree with Jennifer when she mentioned a positive outlook really making a difference in the navigation of your path ahead plus extending and enriching life. My Mom also went thru stage 4 cancer and her oulook was incredible...she beat it after one round of chemo (no surgery) and is 7 years in remission now. Miracles still happen, just like rainbows appearing the sky. But, ya gotta be looking for them to see 🙂