I'm sorry, @gbana, for your cancer diagnosis. No one wants to hear these words. My thoughts are to give yourself a little patience and grace in learning how to cope, realizing these words have turned your world upside down. Learning to breathe through those moments will begin to help. I am a woman of prayer, and know full well my frailty before me in a cancer diagnosis. Twice. Living through the diagnosis and treatment, and into survivorship is a great journey. It can be long and arduous. You are still the same person as before the diagnosis. . . . but you'll need to adjust to the new normal. And you will. Thought precedes emotion. . . so getting your mind set aright will cause your body's emotional responses to follow. Talking to and with others can help you sift through the thoughts you're having, helping you to find more productive thinking in the midst of the fear and uncertainty. But most of all, I think I would offer you prayer and meditation. I have always been a believer in Jesus, and put my hope in God. Talking and listening to Him has been my greatest coping-and-hoping medicine. :). You will learn to live through this, gbana, just give yourself the time to adjust. I am thinking of the many cards I received during my cancer treatment. . . and one that helped me a great deal was from a person who had written, "You WILL get your life back." There was such hope in those words! I taped that card (as well as many others) up on my bathroom mirror, so I would see them every. single. day. It is a marathon, not a sprint, they say. And daily, you need to set your mind aright. My prayers for you to be able to do this soon.