Hi & thanks Colleen , I can only say i stopped once I saw the word palliative on a medical folder it freaked me out & I was one that just felt they would blame me for smoking so I just went cold turkey and after the initial feel & fear of suffocating before landing in ER . I have been fine on my medication & oxygen plus my doctors have been amazing .My first few days home from hospital were very scary with the anxiety but i pace it . I am in no pain but am finally realizing my limits . I have very bad days but I also have some good days ha ha . I think the word death is what finally hit me & thinking of all the mysteries it holds could overwhelm so I just try hard to live each moment , minute in humor with appreciation . Tomorrow may be terrible but at the moment life is good . p.s. I am still getting use to the oxygen hose which can really be humorous .