@kenyalama
“Best friend”? That person wasn’t a best friend, far from it at least in my opinion.
Best and good friends like you as you are and they accept you problems and all. If I had to be that careful when talking to my friends because they are so sensitive and selfish and not make them uncomfortable then I don't want them anyway. Responsibilities come with being a friend especially a best friend. A best friend is ALWAYS there for you.
You come here, many members may have experienced the fear and the same problems you are facing and hopefully can ease your concerns.
Blessings,
Jake