@fieryrn I don't know how you could not be emotional, given all that's going on in your life. Things do get scary, for sure. I hope that you will stay aware of what your body tells you, especially at work. Add to your own medical history being in what is now an even more stressful vocation, pacing yourself and asking for help with the heavy lifting is pretty important. Take care of yourself.

If you haven't already talked with a counselor, this might be a good time to do so. I can vouch for the benefit of talking through things. It's been a huge part of my mental health progress. Being in a caring profession is more stressful than many people imagine, and a danger of caring for others is ignoring one's own wellbeing.

If you're comfortable with sharing what emotions are being stirred up, we are here to listen.

Jim