I am so sorry Annie, I'm glad you're here and can share and not feel so alone. And yes, the anger and denial are very common and expected - at this stage especially. We all grieve on our own time and our own way and your feelings are always valid. Definitely do reach out on here, and if you are on social media at all, like facebook, there are groups you can join there too for people living with grief. Do what you can to surround yourself with people to talk to and don't let yourself become isolated. I promise you that there are so many people who care!