I feel the same way, most days. My horses are all so kind and so gentle with me. I am very grateful to them. My paint came from the feed lot, ready to ship to slaughter as a stud at around 10 years. He was gelded and treated nicely and in no time he had turned into the barn clown and people pleaser. My quarter was treated badly and abandoned, he loves whoever his one person is at any given time, and me, but is very untrusting of new people. My friesian loves all of his adoring fans and is just the kindest most gentle guy. He was abandoned at an age over 20 and the vet figures he is now somewhere over 30. He is slowing down, but no suffering. All of them regularly participate with other people, only adults with the quarter.