I feel you. My mom wanted to die at home and people get purple blotches on them before they die. Not saying he is dying, but I helped my mom and it's a scary hard road, but I believe that people should have their wishes respected. I am not going to lie though...it was a really stressful situation made 1,000 Xs stressful by family members who were not much invovled but wanted to give their two cents. And at some point for all of us, it is just pain management. And if I could do it all over again...help mom die at home, I would. And I would find ways to do it even better. So enjoy your jorney as silly as that sounds to say. I just remember my mom telling me "This dying thing is easy." And that lightened my heart to know that.