Hello Lizzie. By “R-14 L12”do you mean 14% word recognition in right ear and 12% words recognition in left ear ? And if so at what dB level ? I have 64% word recognition in left ear at 90 dB and was born deaf in right ear. Would like to understand how I compare to your situation. In my case I would be 100% deaf if I installed a cochlear implant in impaired left ear and for some unexplained reason it didn’t work, an extreme version of your “could never go back” situation. Thus my reluctance to go to a cochlear implant.