@mlenney167 Annie, allow me to also express my condolences on your loss. As @1nan said, reaching out like you have shows great compassion. There is a loss and grief discussion group that you may find some support https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/loss-grief/ And of course, we are here for you. Pull up a chair, we'll pour a cuppa tea, and chat.

We never know the time we have left. Your anger will eventually simmer down, and the sadness will give way to a series of memories. Cherish those, and remember, we each grieve in our own way, no one way is "better" than another.
Ginger