@sacred2-Good morning- or afternoon depending on where you are. I have been away from talking with you because we just went through a hurricane and lost power. Then I went and had stitches out from a small procedure on the top of my foot. I've never seen such tight stitches, nor felt them!

Information is power, as I have written before. You and your husband can use that to help keep calmer. Since this isn't his first cancer familiarity should make things easier. I find that as I go on, knowing some things and the way they work lessens fear because I know somewhat, at least, what to expect.

A story- When I first was told that I needed lots of tests prior to my surgery I was so unfamiliar with them that I panicked. I'm really surprised that I didn't have a problem with all the valium I took. I suppose that my fear was more than what I took! Anyway, I have had some of them repeatedly and even though I hate them, I know what to expect even if my fear of the results stays the same. Does this make sense?

I am so glad that you are sharing all of your fears and experiences on Connect because I'm positive there are people reading your story and think, that's me! Some people just don't want to post, but they relate and find comfort that they aren't alone and learn about what is going on!

Again, I'm sorry that I have missed a few days. But I'm back and look forward to more of your posts.

Do you share some of your posts or ours with your husband? Would he like to come aboard?