I can't fealall your pain just a little since I have copd for just 8 months. Since everyone is different I have read wear some copd cases like mine is emphysema life expectancy is not much longer then 5 yrs. If I can get an extra 20yrs. I would be thrilled beyond belief since I'm 65 yrs. Old now that would be great. We all have to keep fighting .least you have family to support you .I know this isn't much help I'm not ashamed of my Christianity I definitely will be praying for you GOD loves you!