I've been in therapy much of the last 10 years to try to deal with the "loss" of my granddaughter after her mother died when she was 3. Her feelings toward me haven't changed much, but she's now 16, and I'm still grieving. It's hard not to picture the relationship as I'd like it to be rather than what it is. I've become involved with a local spiritual center (Science of Mind). The people there have been helpful when other things have not been. Of course, all this came to an abrupt halt when Covid hit. I'm hoping to become involved again once things open up. I need to get my joy elsewhere, but it's a great challenge every day. I intend to read the book you recommended. Thank you.