Becky, after suffering with all the crazy heat the past few weeks, yesterday, the first day of summer, I had to dig out my alpaca wool cap, warm jacket and mittens for our morning and evening walks! 😳 Crazy!!! Today we have the fireplace on in the house to warm it up. It really feels like fall!!
Wishing you success with your new beginning! You know we’re right here behind you…gently nudging…not shoving. 😉

Congratulations, Becky! Sounds like a plan and like you're doing well, lady, Keep it up. You are much stronger it appears.....walking is such a good thing!

Thank you so much for your positive encouragement. I read my last message and was shocked at how 'poor me 'it was. That happens when my son is not well and I'm focusing on his needs and hearing his anger and pain. I focus on getting him `ok, helping him get rid of some pain and to work on dealing with his thoughts -unsuccessful usually. I begin to get more negative. In every way....I've worked so hard over the last couple of years through meditation, prayer, my wonderful therapy pool, learning new ways of processing pain, illness and loss. I pray some one, some time will guide him through that process. Perhaps the PRC will help, at the right time. It can't be me.

I have a long way to go to develop stronger, more positive thinking to will win over negative input. Rob at times is in such a painful state he can't deal with all things life. I am his primary human contact. When he must express his fears and anger, I'm it. It is tough to hear and see his pain.

Also, I think those of us who live alone with limited contact with friends or family may find it especially difficult to keep a positive focus on life and deal with pain. So, when I have physical problems it's even harder to deal with Rob and with 'bad turnips'....love that concept!!!!!....kinda' piles up. Rotten turnips all piled up sometimes over my head! Great image! Hold your nose!

I have Thursday appointments with urologist and nephrologist due to ED stay. Probably Thursday tests for the protein build-up, possible 'leaky kidney' and whatever else may be found. This all took me by surprise. I have known and tried like crazy to get someone to pay attention to these kidneys and recurrent UTI's, but there are other things that took precedent in docs' minds. Like heart and lungs...but, we do have to be our own, persistent advocates. I thought I was, doggone it! Am now. And, I'm wondering if Sarcoid or a lifetime of steroids may have some part in this....

I think my walking will have to wait for a little while. Maybe I can get someone to ok the therapy pool???? Hope so. After the UTI/infection is cleared, give me the ok to hit the water! I don't have the stamina to walk far even using my wonderful hot pink walker, but tomorrow at Mayo inside I'll give it a try. Just must think moderation.

BTW, the last 3 days I've been across the street giving my son a deep shoulder/neck/back massage with frankensence and myrrh balm! He was able to sleep after each massage session. I lasted about 15-20 minutes each time, using the balls of my hands and actually found the pushing hard with the balm was helpful, to a point, and relieved some of the arthritis pain. Until it didn't.

I have a big day tomorrow and after, so off to bed now, at 7:45. Later than I thought....I send you blessings for peace, wellness, freedom from pain and lots of strength. elizabeth
sorry for the length, just full of it!!!!!!