...this seems such an easy thing to do, find joy in things , yet so hard some days... I am happy for you and I used to love gardening and plants.... I named my first child - middle name - Joy, and she is full of it, as is her sister: and I hope that they never, ever, go through what I have over the last years.. as with many others on this site, it's so hard to deal with illness and pain and, again, amazed at whaat some people can get through... I used to but now 77 have seemed to have lost my inner strength if that makes sense but do appreciate your and others kind words. J.