Yes, sharing my progress or lack thereof on this site is a way of not only venting but examining my thoughts as well as comments from others such as yourself at least puts the situation in some sort of order. I feel that these past months I have been in limbo trying to determine if I can continue to live with my current state and I suppose I could but being in my late 70's, I assume it may become more difficult to deal with as I get older. In general, I am fairly healthy, BP controlled with a few meds, not diabetic, no heart dx., My pre-op physical shows me to be fairly healthy for my age.