..SOS having bad days and right now. 2 areas, bowel and ears. have written lots on here different pages cant find right now. bowel spasms, ibsd, c.diff 2018, feecal incontnence since controlling by imodium which probably not helping how i feel, finally going for colonsocopy but spoke to dr never seen befoe, surgeonm and he thinks ct scan best; but today lots of bowel spasms but what is hurtingis as written before tinnitus 24/7, ear fullness, eustachian tube and ent who is swamped says no tubes, cause eardrum puncture in fifty per cent of people, pain and pressure in ears, taking tylenol, started physio but no help today and spouse has own serioius issues i write on here once in a while just cant go on and today is one of those days and had about 3 at least this week... the pain fullness raditing pain nausea but no vomit, taken half clonazepam i honestly dont know what to do any more... its been long time over year and year before other things and been in bedroom ninety per cent of time; no wehre to phone even for chat; found a friend out of town from connect and she has been wonderful sendng emails etc. but right now am very very down - not calling suicide line, i want help for physical pain and i feel horrible as know others worse off than me... crying and moaning not helping and 2 daughters up to necks in work and household and both incuding spouse sick of hearing me whining.... bad enough almost every day, not point going to emerge, no family dr., dr. clinic closeds for weekend cant do anyting anyway.... how do people cope????? sorry.... even p.n. acting up ... i wouldnt expect my dog to put up with this! J.