Oh my goodness megan123! Where did you come from? That's what it is! I never looked at it like that before, but you are so right. MAC has taken so much from so many people who were once vibrant and energetic and so full of life. That must be why they say "before MAC" and "after MAC." Yes,it is just like stages of grief. Only thank the good God, it is said we may die with MAC but not from MAC! Thank you for your insight! And yes, keeping positive is key. My mom always said, "It's all in the attitude!" Irene

<br><br><br><br><br>I have been grieving this chronic illness off and on over the years. I <br>have been on total disability since 2007 at the age of 49. My new way of looking <br>at is that I am having my 'retirement' years sooner than everybody else. I have <br>had many good days along the way that I enjoyed travels etc. or just feeling <br>decent. Many healthy people sometimes aren't lucky enough to live to see <br>retirement. Anyway, that is my way of dealing with the cards I have been <br>dealt.<br> <br><br>

@windwalker, Terri, you are such a cutie! What a great attitude .. choosing to see it as having the "option of early retirement"! I totally agree .. how we "see" our lives is what "looking glass" we choose. I was once told my "problem" was that I "chose" to see a 1/3 full glass as a full glass. My response was that was perhaps my survival tool for a pretty tough life. It has gotten me to a pretty darn successful point in life that I don't think anyone would have predicted frankly if they knew the whole "unpretty" picture that few know. I'm only telling you because most people only judge from the outside .. never knowing our "story". Here on our Forum you have been so honest about your story that few people probably know in your life .. I applaud your strength, courage and honesty .. lack of self pity. I am proud to know you. Hugs to you! Katherine

<br><br><br><br><br>Wow Katherine, I am touched! I feel the same way about you!<br> <br> <br><br>