@duckduck2020- Oh, my word, this certainly doesn't help your state of mind! I am so very sorry for the loss of your brother. I have lost a sister. It's strange losing a sibling, don't you think? Shared history and fun times. I recently told my younger sister not to go anywhere because she's my memory!

I hope that you are allowing pain meds. I know that hospitals often stick to 4 hr intervals, but that's never enough. Three hours would be better.

Your frame of mind seems to be in a great state for healing and moving on. I can't wait to hear if you were discharged today!