Hello @lacy2, I've been reading your posts. It sounds like you have a lot of medical problems as well as a lot of medication side effects. I have some of those same issues as well and I know how difficult it can be to deal with. It is easy to feel as you said like you are, "between a rock and a hard place."

I would encourage you to read some other discussions on Connect,

https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/importance-of-focusing-on-positive-with-depression-anxiety/ and
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/taking-our-minds-off-things-what-are-you-watching/
While these discussions won't solve the physical/medical problems they may be able to encourage you not to spend the day in bed with your Ipad. I love my electronic devices, but they really aren't a substitute for a phone call to a friend or writing a note to someone who is in a difficult place.

Can you try this?