I'm glad to hear that you had access to your GP sooner than the end of the month. Remember that taking medication is not a sign of weakness. Talk to you doctor about the concerns you have with taking medication and how, together, you may figure out a way to get the drug and dosage that is right for you. You shouldn't feel like you're on a pill-train or slave to them. Just enough to be your assistant to see glass half full instead of empty. Right?