@lacy2 Hello, Lacy. I am indeed extremely fortunate I live in the area I can get to the Mayo Clinic Florida easily. I have 'easy access' to the expertise and care of these folks. I had quite a fight through the years it took to get me there, but I am so blessed and I know it every day. You have tough issues to face. Sometimes it is a lonely, uphill climb trying to keep above water, put that one foot in front of the other, but it can be done......one tiny, iddy, biddy step at a time, with lots of steps backwards.

I guess I realized I truly was better when the backward steps began being smaller and fewer, the steps toward acceptance of my physical situation.....and that's a really hard one, acceptance, 'cause we don't like or want to be where we are with our health! When I didn't want gray hair, I went back to the first choice and colored it black, smiled and felt good. I made a decision, I took control. Last year, I decided, made a choice to let it be it's natural self, gray. So, I accepted my age, my self as I am and felt so liberated. You know, that may have been my awakening to the reality of my life, the acceptance of life.

So, my friend, deep breath, please. Another deep breath. Now, move one foot forward, just a bit. You did it and still standing. Another deep breath......then rest...and begin again. That's it. You're on your way. 'Gotta remember to breath.

I remember years ago, I was told 'No one promised you a rose garden!'. Nope. They didn't, but I expected one and fought and screamed inside until I finally realized.....roses are so lovely, but they sure have thorns. Yep. We're feeling those nasty thorns. But, you're in control of yourself! Take that control, strip off those thorns and get moving!

Blessings, Lacy in every day and all you do. You are in charge of you....no one else. I think when this revelation began, I first realized I had that ability to live my life through my own choices. Wow, what a day.....elizabeth