This hesitation is normal, I think. I had it when diagnosed a few years ago, and actually was wearing masks in some situations before Covid and fanatically avoiding getting sick with sanitizing surfaces & hands and staying apart from anyone who had a cold.

We are fully vaccinated & beginning to move about, but so far I have resolved it for myself by doing the following -
Masks whenever I'm out, whether others are wearing or not, and leaving anywhere I feel is too crowded.
Not gathering indoors other than with my immediate family (we have been our own bubble for many months) or vaccinated friends.
Eating out - outdoors only so far, except one trusted local place with great distancing & safety protocols.
We will travel this week, and are planning some takeout along the way. We will try to choose motels with outdoor entrances to each room, and ventilate/sanitize on arrival. (We have traveled safely this way 3 times during the pandemic.)
No masks are required at our destination, so we will likely return to curbside pickup for our groceries.

If my friends asked me out, I would go if there was a place to eat on the patio...but maybe I am a risk-taker.

Sue

I had no reaction to the vaccine. My arm wasn't even sore. Wearing a mask these past 3 years has helped me avoid getting sick but I agree it's impossible to eat with one on! Perhaps, you could sit at the end of the table and have everyone else be 2 seats away. Good luck, Joan