.@lioness and @ginger ...thank you ... I am so "mouthy" when I am feeling better and then the pains/prssur, and stress of upcoming doctor appointments (via phone or internet) just overwhelm me.... and the emotional side wins. My physical certainly now rules my mental health. Even tho video/phone appointments coming up for the ear pain had for months, and what I feel are internal tremors on top of all the other illnesses I have, there really isnt a lot they can do and I have had so many meds over the years and tests, at 77 really don't want to pursue. Ginger I typed a separate thank you to you before this but when pressed enter, it disappeared. So nice of you all to help me... it is appreciated but I get even too down to accept a covid friendly visit from my adult daughters/not only having a self pity party, I am not inviting any guests. Bothers my spouse too to see me/hear my words, as he is recuperating from heart surgery.... I don't have a tremendous lot....but would give it all up to live in one room with straw on the floor in exchange to feel well even for a short time.. ... J.