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Replies to "@waterboy- Hello, and good morning. Would you like to expand on your thoughts concerning the meaning..."
Yes, I can do that. Being a 71 yr old male with severe COPD, Alpha one, ET's, an IPP for ED... and it seems almost every time I see a new Dr. they say "We can't cure it, but we can treat it", it brings out that question. I watched my over 90 yr old neighbor litterly wither away and die. I watched how he tried to do things he couldn't, and finally spent the most of his time sitting in his chair. THAT IS NOT LIVING (he loved working outside, or in the basement making things) that is adding one more day on earth and having life. I think of people on respirators that have almost zero chance of getting better.. that is why I wear a DNR bracelet. I don't want to die, nor would I take my own life, but at the same time, taking pills three four times a day, nebulizers four times a day, and having to wear an oxygen cannula to sleep begins to wear on you. Now I get to have cataract surgery in both eyes and get upper and lower dentures. I guess to put it to rest I would rather have 50 years of living, than 90 years of "LIFE."