Ahh..the Winter doldrums on top of everything else! I am trying to look at photographer friends posts of nature. Find a topic you like and start searching. Beautiful scenery is calming..and pet antics make you laugh. Do what you can with your docs to make sure you have the right meds for comfort and try to relax.
Buy a tulip daffodil or seedlings and watch them grow. Think good thoughts...ask for God's help. It will be Spring soon!