Good evening, dear @lorirenee1. You just hit my memory bank with the comment....." and I tried so hard!" I think that is obvious and it is not you that needs any straightening up. Why does it seem that when we really don't care or haven't really been convinced about something we attempt......it turns out beautifully and the world applauds. Then when something that we've built up as a go-to, a way to improve quality of life, the desired path to comfort and ease, why is it then that we don't get the outcome we wanted. Did we ask for too much? Are we not deserving? When will it be our turn?

So....in spite of all that......we need to find the strength to try again. Maybe we are close to discovering better technological inventions that swoosh away the pain and exchange it for energy. Maybe with unconditional acceptance of ourselves, we can be more accepting of our not so dear friend, pain, and with that will come comfort.

Holding you in my thoughts..........may you be free of suffering and the causes of suffering.
Chris