@earscan- After cancer, which changes a person's perspective on life in general, I think that we have a different normal. There's no going back to before because you have had a life-threatening illness. After my first cancer, I never got over my fear of another one, not knowing that I would have many more. That's not to say that I go around thinking about it all the time. But it's there, like a Jimminy Cricket with a negative 'tude!
I recently, on another site, chatted with a gal who has decided against having a lung transplant. She has end-stage COPD. The main reason, she said, was because she didn't want to be a burden on her family because the recuperation and need for specialized care would be too much.
It sounds as if you have decided to stop your treatments, or am I wrong? Your good quality of life that you feel right now will change as your cancer spreads. If I'm correct in understanding your decision can I ask what your family has said about this? It's an extremely difficult, but brave decision. How long have you felt like this?
my family said so far, go with the "quality of life." I have yet to start these treatments, but I had cancer before. I swore I would never do this again. If my biopsies are positive, then I'm out. If surgery can do it, I might consider it, but chemo and radiation are really bad for a blue-eyed redhead. Last time I had burns everywhere. So I am at peace with it. And you're right, you are always waiting for the other shoe to fall. Thank you for your very honest feedback! You're the best!