Good morning Ellen. You have been in my daily compassion meditation for a week or so. And I see that you haven't posted in quite some time. How are you doing with your medication and your medical provider? Do you feel that you are being taken care of right now? How are you feeling about yourself? Did you get to celebrate on Zoom with friends and family over the Holidays. I sure hope so.

As I see this, you are an amazingly capable woman who has encountered a bit of a roadblock. I was in that same situation for several years. I am a trained counselor/therapist and did quite a bit with couples. I don't think I was particularly successful sometimes.
So I left the college, my family, and that part of the country and tried to start over. I jumped into some tough mental and emotional challenges and landed right side up eventually.

This year we focused on the quality of life and how we might give ourselves the gift of compassion if that would help. Here are some other ideas from the original post. If you would like to give this idea a try or if you just want to keyboard chat.....let me know.
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/quality-of-life-a-gift-that-just-keeps-on-giving/
May you have happiness and the causes of happiness.
Chris