Hello @lind827,

I would like to join the other members who have expressed their condolences to you. I am so sorry to hear of your husband's passing. The picture you posted is just precious! Thank you for sharing that with Connect. Thirty-seven years of marriage was a long time to be with one person and I'm sure you loved each other very much.

You said that what brings you the most sadness is, "I keep saying I want to feel him or see some sign that he is with me as everyone says it happens, but Neither for me." Perhaps you could begin this yourself? What I'd like to suggest is to write your husband a note at the end (or beginning) of the day. You could tell him how much you love him and miss him. You could tell him about what is going on in your life and in the lives of your family. When that new grandchild comes next month you could put the baby's picture on your note to him.

This can often be quite comforting to those who have lost loved ones. It keeps you in touch with your feelings and helps you feel like you are not so alone. Keeping in touch with deceased loved ones through writing is often suggested in grief support groups and can bring comfort.

Is this something you might consider?