@caseygirlx0xmv, I am so sorry to hear about your abuse. I too lived it. IAt the advice of a therapist I saw MANY years later, she suggested I attend a domestic violence support group. I did for 4.5 years and it was one of the best things I've ever done!
I think there are probably groups going on bc it is essential.
I hope that you will consider this. It was so hard to walk in the door for the first time but I learned so much and experienced so much healing.
The info for where you live should be available online.
I wish you all the best!! I hope you have a blessed day. Know that I will be praying for you, Sunnyflower. 🙏😊🌹