@cb772
Unfortunately, as I am learning, your horror story is, sadly, not that uncommon. Hideously and disgustingly high pain levels that people like yourself are having, while access to the meds you absolutely need to help you at least live life in a somewhat more acceptable fashion is restricted by Big Dumb Government to supposedly "protect" a bunch of drug addicts from themselves. Then those addicts perpetrate crimes on innocent people in order to get the drugs anyway, only not medical grade but street grade which is also more dangerous for them. I think the Scandinavian model is the only way to go. Legalize EVERYTHING! The drug war is a lost cause and only hurts people like you, who never deserved to be treated so.

I am sad, very sad, to hear your story. I wish you could find the strength to endure and I hope some good thing will come to you to paint your life with some light; you so deserve it my dear. Best to you, hang in there. Hank