@lorirenee1 @jesfactsmon my isolation is my own fault. I devoted all of myself to my jobs for 25 years and there are many tough situations to deal with in management and you can’t really share anything because of privacy concerns. I have no hobbies, worked 7 days week 12 hours/day minimum and then sleep. Some truly awful management situations were given to me to deal with and the last couple broke the anxiety/depression camel’s back. At the same time the sciatica was ramping up over 10 years and it wasn’t until the last couple years I could get a minimal amount of pain meds. I had to kneel at work, sit with a towel under my thigh, and sometimes just go cry in the bathroom or parking garage. Clearly physical therapy wasn’t helping or chiropractics etc. It hurt to have a sheet touch any part of my calves. I am so glad I met you both but realize I made bad decisions. Work should never be someone’s life. My psychologist said because of the number of years I dealt with this it would be very hard to heal to a normal level emotionally and I believe she’s right. I look forward to hearing from both of you and hope it continues. Need to ice down now. I took a Murphy for a short walk. My lichen planus is also acting up and I have to be careful with where the cream ends up as it slowly thins your skin.

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