Hi Hank. I’m sorry I totally missed that question. It is funny how friends and families fade when you have so little to give. I have been resuscitated several times over the years found just by dumb luck. Vomiting up charcoal is horrible (sorry for the graphic) It probably depends on the place but if you are not crazy when you are committed/admitted against your will by a friend you have given so much money and great jobs (who then never checks on you again) you are never the same when you walk out. I’ve been in 2-3 week outpatient programs as well. Thank god I have found a dr who will prescribe benzos in small amounts. No psychiatrists would prescribe because they are addicting. I might still be working if I had been on an extended release benzo. That would have helped long ago. No antidepressant has worked and my chart will tell you I’ve taken them all. My husband is as supportive as he can be. Only in this 10th year does he realize how truly incapacitated I am. I have 2 or 3 people I can reach out for in an emergency like I had to have a colonoscopy and someone I drove and stayed with 10 years ago returned the favor. I live day to day and hope one day I will feel joy again. Thanks for being so perceptive. I guess I am validly classified as a shut in. Please continue to reach out to me.