I finally emailed his office this afternoon, so hope to hear from him tomorrow. It is a hard step for me. Thank you Ginger for your encouraging and kind words!

It has been awhile since I posted anything, partly because I wasn't sure how to follow friends or Mentors communicating with me. I get many, many emails and I am confused if any are directed to me. Also finding friends who have responded directly to my posts. I have a hard time understanding this forum I guess.
I am taking this opportunity and hoping all who have been so kind with their words of encouragement and advice see this. On Friday I heard from my clinic and they will be contacting me this coming week to set up video counseling. I am soooo very excited about this. The need to talk to someone gets greater every day, as well as the loneliness. I do walk for about an hour most days, and I am glad it is still nice enough to do that, but then I end up taking a long nap afterwards as I am out of shape and overweight. Eating is still my guilty pleasure. Shame follows. I am still journaling, and trying to focus more on gratitude (believe it or not). As with any journaling, reading them another day is helpful to me.