Laurry I don't wish this life on anyone, but it does help to know I am not alone in an emotionally abusive marriage. At our age it seems impossible to make a change, finances being a huge problem in my case. I feel like I try my best to be positive and keep busy, but every day is a struggle and I find myself getting lazier, taking naps, having pity parties I guess. I try to remember how lucky I am to have my beautiful children and grandchildren, and that so very many people have it worse than I do. It is so hard to stay positive when depression rules your life. I hope we can keep in touch here.