@jimhd I'm sorry Jim for your recent slump. I totally understand, don't worry a bit about replying about anything. I just have so much hope for you to find an answer for you. It's been quite a long time now but I still do remember how it felt to be steeped in despair. How much it can make you just want to give up and not have to feel anymore.
I hope David is interested in helping you in exploring inner child work. The pain exists at your center. Your center is not feeling love, which is what it needs and craves. The catharsis that happened to me when the love started to pour over that inner part of me was powerful. It was scary how emotional I became, or it became, whichever. It took a while to recover as it threw me off balance, which is why it's good to plan to have time/space after a session to just chill and be with yourself.
I feel hurt in thinking about where you are at Jim. I hope you can get through the awful hell that this is. I am here for you to the best of my ability to be. Also, feel free to talk through private messages as well if that helps you. Best, Hank