@brayimee Aimee, trust YOU. Trust that you (at this point anyway) are the only one who knows that this a real physical issue. It's not in your head. I don't believe that and you need to discount these doctors who are making you feel insecure. Trust yourself, trust your husband who obviously believes in you. And most of all trust God. My wife and I always say to each other that God never gives us more than we can handle. And I believe you are tougher than you think you are, there is a strength inside of you. Just don't give up, stay on your course, whatever you have decided that is. Go with your friend to WV. Your husband is a good man to encourage you in this.

Look at it this way, life is a journey. The journey is all about God's plan for you. Turn to Him for guidance, and after that your job is to just make the best decisions you know how to and do the best job you can to execute these decisions. But leave the results to God as this is His ballgame not ours. And I don't mean to sound patronizing, I'm sorry if I do. I've been through stuff in my life that was hard as well, and I didn't always follow the advice I am giving you. But what I am telling you is the best I can come up with out of my own little pea brain to try to help you. I genuinely care about you and your family, as I think many of us here do. Try to remain calm, deep breathe a lot, and keep putting one foot in front of the other. I will pray for your ultimate success Aimee. Best, Hank