@jesfactsmon Awww, Hank, your kindness is just the best. It's like you know what I need! Yes, this is a very trying time for me, as I really thought that the DRG would improve my life. I still hope it does, and pray that my nerves will totally heal from surgery, and respond to the electricity in the way I had hoped. As I write, my legs are lifted on the couch, as I cannot put my feet on the ground without terrible pain starting. Somehow, leg elevation helps. At least I have this trick! Everyone here is searching for something to work. Everyone here deserves joy, and a normal life. Sometimes I get so sad reading about all of us, that it almost enhances the pain. I think I am a true empath, and I am not always sure if this is good or bad. Life can suddenly just turn. I do lose hope, and I have, deep down, a very happy, funny, spirit. Even family stops asking. I think illness can make our loved ones very uncomfortable after awhile. You are really strong, Hank, to listen to all of this. Maybe it is these deeper sharing that really connects us as human beings. I know the deep suffering here. I know how each of us try to cope with a really unbearable illness. I know God. I pray all of the time. Getting carried away here, but thanks so much. You are a gem, and Linda is a lucky lady to have you. Lori Renee
Hi Lori, wow, almost everything you said I can relate to and experience myself. My husband has called me an empath since he met me 29 years ago! I didn't even know what that meant at the time LOL! He always watches sci-fi so I thought it was a characteristic the aliens on his shows! It is so funny I was just thinking how sad it makes me to read everyone's story also, because I cannot bear the thought of anyone suffering! But yet I am so thankful for the blog because it helps me know how to pray better and reminds me to pray. I've come to the conclusion that pain or the degree of pain or the types of pain we are in, and most of us have many types and pretty intense degrees, that others who do not experience this can't understand it. They can see us come and go from the doctor and Hospital, even the ambulance and in wheelchairs, they know we're in bed with ice and heat at the same time in different parts of our body they can see it on their faces and in some cases we have had to ask them to adjust their expectations of us and told them how sorry we are that we cannot be there for them because of our physical limitations yet, if we have a smile on our face, the world thinks were doing fine. Or, on the rare occasions we put on makeup and have a smile for sure people think we are better than ever. If they only knew. I've never belonged to a support group like this where people can understand my pain and it really has meant the world to me which is a gross understatement. I am deeply grateful for the warm caring and supportive group All of You Are. I wish many, many blessings to each one of you. In Christ's unfathomable love, Sunny flower