Thanks goodness you have kratom! To be up a creek (meaning PN pain) without any sort of paddle (like kratom, cannabis, whatever does it for one) would take any of us to the depths of despair. I do not pretend to know why certain things happen to certain people but I am firmly of the camp that nothing ever happens without a reason. We do not get to know what the reasons are but that is just how it works. Just don;t give up hope for better things coming, as nothing, either good or bad, lasts forever. Just remember the old saying "this too shall pass". Love to you. Hank