@lah
Hi, I just found your story tonight for the first time (I only recently began following the Caregiver group here on Connect). I have scanned through all of your posts since 2019. You struggles are so human, your reactions to things so understandable. I have so much regard for you. What a trooper you have been for your husband!

I take care of my wife. She went through the whole breast cancer bit from 2011-2015. 5 outbreaks, 5 surgeries, one aborted chemo program (those chemicals were WAY bad for her body!). We finally were able to move past it when we discovered something called Haelan, which she takes every day and it keeps the cancer neutralized in her body, which was a stunning miracle that appeared out of nowhere. So we are not dealing with her cancer anymore, but she has developed bad neuropathy which has now been followed by several other health issues which she suffers through on a daily basis. Her life is severely curtailed from what it used to be. Mine as well.

One interesting difference between your experience and mine is that when my wife is very sick and weak, she becomes the sweetest and most appreciative person, she is just a jewel to care for. It's when her health swings back and she feels better and she has more energy, that is when she becomes more of a handful. She becomes more critical and more irritable. Weird I know, but that is what happens. I do everything I can for her and want always for her to feel better, stronger and healthier, but I always know that I must expect what comes with that. It's still mostly good because she is also funnier and is often very be fun to be around when she is feeling better too. But she is definitely the sweetest when she is sicker. Life sure is full of unexpected things!

My heart goes out to you as well as your husband as you traverse this years-long nightmare. Since I have been following the Connect forum I have become aware of so many sad stories of pain and struggle, but also of inspiration. And of so many heroic individuals such as yourself. Sending love and prayers and the best possible wishes to you guys. Hank