A therapist once suggested I watch a sad movie now and then, to get myself to cry. Good advice. Movies that are overly sentimental get me to cry too. When you think about the Greek Myths, and the story of the medusa and how to kill the medusa you couldn't look directly at her, but only indirectly. The young warrior who's name I forgot, Persius? He killed her by holding up his shield and her reflection was shown in the mirror of the pollshed shield, and then he beheaded her. tt's a metaphor. Facing your issues directly doesn't work for you, must face them in reflection or metaphor of some type, it would seem.