Good morning @oxbeaux. Welcome to Connect. I am reading your post and feeling heartbroken for your loss. It sounds like you have made your journey one of remembrance and a process for letting go.

How is your health? Have you had to wait for the Covid 19 to stop interfering with your progress?

Ya know @oxbeaux, you have landed in a community of caring folks. We are not medical practitioners, just patients and caregivers who will join hands and hearts with you as you progress to define your life.

You don’t have to be alone. In fact you may appreciate some quiet time...not lonely, just relaxed and in the process of discovery. Most of us on connect have had to confront isolation and the curtailment of social activities.

Would you be able to tell us how your wife passed? How many siblings do you have? Are you in New Orleans or somewhere else in Louisiana?

Personally, I have interesting memories of New Orleans. One was labeled Hurricane Hilda. The other arrival in my life was my daughter, who was born during that frighting storm.

May you be safe and protected from inner and outer harm.

What do you have planned for day two?

Chris

@oxbeaux Welcome and congratulations. I journal intermittently and prefer writing on paper, but do what works for you. I am rather resistant to using my phone for anything other than phone calls and brief messages. I also found Covid quarantining more confining than my usual isolation. My personal behavior did not change much, but not having the input from activities in the outside world really threw me off. I am better now, but this hit me hard and fast and I am not fully recovered emotionally. Come here to talk any day. You will be welcomed by all.

@oxbeaux As in any endeavor, there is always a "day one". Applauding your first day, and the bravery to start. I read your post this morning before heading out to do a bit of yard work. It gave me great food for thought, as my hands were busy yanking at unwanted growth [weeds]. Any form we use to get thoughts down is what works for us that day. Another time we might choose to use pen and paper, or draw out out thoughts/feelings, or cut out images from a printed source. Place a clipping from the newspaper or magazine that speaks to us, then write how it affects us. Mementos that mean something to us. It's all good!

Condolences on your recent loss, and now the big change in your life as you left what was familiar and ventured into your siblings' territory. Has your RV become a welcome respite for you, or are you planning your return to Phoenix area soon? Your journal is literally an open book for you to explore yourself, and your surrounding world.

Thank you for joining us here, please come back when you can. We can pretty much promise to be here and be of whatever support you need!
Ginger

@oxbeaux First of all welcome! Secondly sorry for your loss. Next BRAVO on your special journey in journaling! There's so many nice people here...glad you connected. Please continue to share and how we can be of help.