@merpreb Yes, growing up can be hard. I had a loving Christian family, but my mom was sick with mental illness. I cried a lot when my boyfriend I loved would break up with me. Many times. But he did up marrying me only to get killed in a car accident only 11 days after we were married. Also, a good friend of 18 was killed with him. Now that it has been 50 years they are still in my heart, but don't run my life. I am positive and try to live my live the best I can and I love myself. Accepting that bad things happen and sometimes it makes you stronger. You have to let them go and Let God take over. We have no connection with his family and they have an 8 year old daughter that was born on my birthday. If she's at her grandma's in Chicago she can skype with us. My son lives in NYC and is bipolar 1. Hi's a professor but cannot teach because of it. His wife is a very successful professor Too. I pray for him to come home and go ahead and live my life.