@sarah60 Stanford is a great place to go. My husband got his Masters and my son got his graduate degree. I worked in the children's hospital on the one that had cancer of young kids. I didn't have any kids then, but I don't think I could work there now. We are back in Iowa our home state, Although we lived on the west coast for 20 year. Mostly in the Seattle area, but 5 years in San Diego. I miss Seattle. I hope they find out what is really wrong with you. No wonder you have anxiety.
Take care of yourself. Have you seen a doctor or psychiatrist for your anxiety? You could use some medicine. My thoughts will be with you.