@sarah60 I am so sorry you suffer from a Depressive Disorder. PTSD and GAD, yes panic attacks are the pits. I know I use to have them too. I'm more stable now. But we have mental illness in our family and my mom took her life at age 69 and I'm 67. My poor son got her disease and is Bipolar 1. We have no contact with him or the family. I feel his wife is controlling him. Haven't seen my 8 year old granddaughter since she was 3. Do skype with her, but only at her other grandmother's and she lives in Chicago and they live in NYC. She does send me pictures of her too. All I can do is pray that my son would come home. What caused your PTSD? Forgot to tell you many of my family also has mental disease.