@jusfactsmon, jimhd Thank you for what you are saying. I know there are o many of us suffering from the disease. I can't even understand it, no less accept it. Did we do something to our bodies when we were young? It is so rampant in older people. Just when we are told about the "Golden Years". People who have no idea of the pain we are in or the balance problems I have don't understand why I am not doing all the fun things "Old people can now do". I hear go more places, do more things. Heck, some days getting in the bath is enough. I keep pushing with doing my own cleaning., dragging trash can down the driveway, yard work, and the other chores a home owner has to do. I do get someone ot mow the grass, but I still use my push mower afterwards because they dont do so many small areas. When I am able to complete a chore I am in so much pain I usually end up in tears and of course a pain pill comes out. Yes, the pain is very bad right now because I over did yesterday. So it goes. Do I just stop. Do I do nothing around here and just sit in a recliner with feet and legs up. My husband died 2 years ago so I must be somewhat independent. Then the depression comes in. So now an antidepressant pill. Obviously doesn't work too well -right? I was crying pretty much all day in between my chore and now only in the evening. Maybe helps a little. We are a group of tough individuals in spite of all my negativity. I have a 4 year old GREAT grandaughter who comes to visit every Sunday (can't even crawl n Monday, but thats ok) I want to leave memories for her and her Mommy so I hang in here. God bless us all.