Hi Chris, I totally get it. Tears at bedtime knowing what I will face in the night and when I wake up. Rheumatology patients are known to be worse in the mornings. That is just one of my myriad of painful diseases and conditions. The first thing I do every morning is to thank and praise God for the day b/c I know He has a purpose in it. If I didn't know that, and trust Him in my circumstances, I would have been toast a long time ago! I realize I am very blessed as God has allotted an extra measure of faith to me but I still have to claim it and spend time getting to know Him in His word, the bible. It helps me so much to know this life is so temporary in light of all eternity and that when we were in the womb, before we took our first breath that He had each day of our lives planned (Psalm 139:16).

At the same time of my worst suffereing, I am acutely aware of my innumerable blessings. It's a gift. There is constant warfare going on in my thoughts so I have to practice getting rid of the stinkin' thinkin' and replace it with truth/bible b/c God talks about that a lot and teaches us how to "arm up". Being so analytical doesn't help!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope you find peace, comfort and encouragement today not to mention, no pain!!!! All the best, Sunnyflower